Sunday, May 08, 2005
1:31 AM
side track, foto taken using xf's new fone hehe 
you make my life perfect-`
pretty girls hahaha
you make my life perfect-`
another s16 foto hehe
you make my life perfect-`
my beloved s16
you make my life perfect-`
Saturday, May 07, 2005
4:12 PM
it's been long since i last stayed at home, been going out ever since exams ended, let me recall wad i have been doing so far, hmm, can't reallie recall haha, mostly shopping, shopping n more shopping but i had a clazz outing yesterday, it was reallie fun n nice to meet up with everyone, n guess where did we go? haha we went back to nj! for the yong tau foo, n to reminise on the past hehe but too bad all the teachers were gone by the time we went back, had a fun time taking fotos, shall upload them when i get hold of them. actually the main aim of yest were to celebrate ven's, yux's n xx's bday, but too bad xx could not make it...yeps, after that some of them went to play captain's ball, which me, xf n geraldine did not participate in hehe, we did not bring xtra clothes to play n din wanted to stink up the place later, so we stood there, watching, gossiping for erm? 1 hr plus?!! haha den xf suggested we went to take a look at our offices, ok so we left the place, took a bus den mrt to raffles place, n i found my PWC building! hmm, it feels great to walk in shenton way, haf the adrenaline rush? hehe, no la, jus that from young, look at the shows on tv, like veri grand to work in shenton way, but mb not, getting a pathetic pay of just $25 dollars a day! haha, ya lor, but the environment looks quite nice, i'm supposed to report on monday, 8.30 at the PWC building~ oh, n i bumped into kelvin, one of the ex-hall 9ners who is working for PWC currently, told me my job shld be quite interesting, hopefulli[ although i dun carry much hope] haha, ya lo.. hmm, after that headed for clarke quay to look at great eastern, n so silly, actuallie we could haf walked from PWC building across far east shopping centre to great eastern, hehe, so end up we discovered that me n xf onlie separated by the Far east shopping centre or smthing duno wad's the name, so funi, n so happi, means can meet together for lunch!! heh ya lor..hmm, yeps after that we had some time to spare while waiting for the rest to join us, we walked around, explored, n i find the place quite nice, most prob will go there to chill out after work, seeing all the executives made us excited hehe, yeps, our plan was to go to the settler's cafe, n we didn't noe mus make reservation, n it was fulli booked for the nite :( how disappointing, wanted to go there coz never go before, ya lor, so we ended up following the bday boy's suggestion to walk to shaw tower to haf the turkish food, haha n my leg almost killed me, coz i was wearing a new pair of slippers n it reallie hurt n gave me blisters! but i tolerated the pain n walked all the way there, haha hmm the food is nice, i ordered no. 25 hehe its smtimes different, after that had dessert n cake... the cake was horrible hahahaha the dessert too, it's called the Opera cake, n its horrible n we r gonna get it for alvin's bday to saboh him hahahahaha hmm ya i guess that was yesterday...
had plans to go cycling this hols, but no time maybe one of the weekends when PA starts bahz, ya lor..hmm....
ya, its gonna be a long post, because i'm bored on this saturday afternoon, waiting for time to pass gg town for dinner later, abit lazy to go also hehe, thinking of gg gym but lazi
hmm, yeps, actuallie i have something to blog about, been meeting james for the past 2 days, 1st was to pass him $1k, 2nd was to pass him another $400, i know my frens disapproved me of lending money to him, i know my frens dun trust him n dislike him, maybe i shld to, but maybe there are a lot of details which i dun share with u all, his problems, etc, i've been through the past 8-9 months hearing abt his problems, maybe i think people think that i m gullible to believe his stories, i doubted him too, i had my doubts, but maybe i understand him too well, i know this is not something to joke abt, n i haf faith n trust in him to repay me, if he doesn't den it's a lesson to expensive to learn, but i talked to him about it, abt my insecurities abt lending such a huge sum of $ to him, n i recalled how he never used to borrow $ frm me no matter how hard up he was when we were together, i recalled his problems, his piety to his mum, i recalled his sincerity, i recalled the stories, i told him he lied to me, abt gg back to his country, abt gg to US, abt the break up, abt the girl..i told him how does he expect me to trust him when he done all the above to me, changed his number but never let me noe, came back n told me his business is none of my business, i dunno how i endured all those, the hurt he caused me, shld make me hate him, but my heart can't do it, maybe i am jus too soft-hearted, maybe i'm jus kind hearted, i can't possibly let my fren, wad more a fren who used to be my bf, to go borrow from loan shark, or to resort to other means, i dowan him to suffer, maybe my $1.4 k is not a big sum to some people, to me it is, i jus hope it helped to tide him over.. i told him he's taking me for granted, knowing i m soft hearted, i told him that n i could feel the anger in him, he said if he didn't care he wouldn't haf helped me move my hostel stuff out, he flew back for jus a few hrs, he could haf rest, he could haf not called me, but he did, i asked if he asked me out because he wanted to borrow $ frm me, he said no...maybe it's an easy thing to say for him, but i could sense the sincerity, the anger he felt when he thinks that i do not trust him, i duno, i hope it is jus not the gullible part of me, he got angry for me confiding in xy n xf, he said my frens will see him as a cheat as some1 who cannot be trusted n if next time he set up a biz in singapore, wad if he bumped into them n they dowan to do biz wif him, i asked him y he bothered more abt wad my frens think n not my feelings? i forgot his reply, he was upset n wanted to return me the money n settle it other ways, i told him i trusted him n asked him to take his time as long as i get back my $, for a moment i felt bad for doubting him, i told him that he lied to me abt everithing becoz of the girl, i asked y did he come back, he told me he could haf enjoyed life if he flew to US/ go back 2 his country, but becoz of his MUM, his mum cannot live without seeing his son, almost went into a depression when she could not c him for the month he went back.. hmm, sometimes i duno if i shld believe him, i duno if i shld care for him considering the hurt he has inflicted on him, to think i told him i do not blame him for having a new gf, becoz feelings cannot be controlled, i noe, maybe its jus the soft hearted nature of me that i duno how to reject any1, n i always help whenever i can, wadevr i can do i will help my frens, i just hope that this trust of me will not be broken, i hope my frens do not doubt my judgement,
ya, i got it off my chest finallie by speaking to him abt it, i felt more comforted that everithing was not a lie, it has been haunting me , wadever things he had said, i always wondered if it was real or fake, but seeing how hard he is working, seeing how busy he is, seeing how miserable his life was, it jus made me look bad for doubting him..
hmm, anyway, dun worri abt me, mb people think i m silly, i told him, if it were other girls n not me, the girl woulld haf ignored him for wadever he had done, for the hurt, for the new gf, the girl would haf guan ta qu si, would ignore him n hated him to the core, i told him i duno y i jus noe i will help him whenever he asked me to, he did not say anything
i duno, maybe i m just too nice n smtimes it is not good to be to nice
you make my life perfect-`