Monday, April 11, 2005
1:47 AM
hello, hmm just came back from a short coffee session wif aaron, ok i was feeling damm down jus now la, ok a moment ago was telling my friend how i've learnt not to cry over some1 not worth it, but i'm weak ok, i cried again, mb it's that kinda feeling where u lost something, found it back for a moment, n realised that it's actually gone forever, the reality jus hits u, it all started wif ' i'm wif my gf' haiz, I think i'm the silliest girl on earth, by rite wadever things that he did, i should hate him, but y don't I? If i hate him, life won't be that bad, smtimes i jus get so upset over it i can't get anything one, but dun worri, most of the time I'm ok, happy as I am, actuallie i already got used to a single life, I can't imagine having some1 wif me now, ya lor, I think i will feel weird, duno, mb jus haben found the one bah, i feel stupid, supposed to finish up 2 more chapters, dat's y i drank coffee to keep me awake, but somehow the thought of reading another long boring chapter makes me sian, n i dun feel like reading it, so i'm gonna postpone it to tmr, so here I am blogging since i'm bored n everi 1 esle is either sleeping/ studying..was chatting to mich jus now, so happie now we finallie talked, there was a point in time i thought she was ignoring me, buthen i'm glad we r chatting again although i dun dare to ask her if she reallie was ignoring me...yar..den her nick was ' wad does it feel to lose someone u love'.....it's so scary, n i reallie can't imagine, i mean losing some1 u love [ breaking up] is bad enuff, can u imagine ur loved ones died? I can't...her friend's bf died in a motorcycle accident, hmm so sad, i mean i'm not her fren yet i can feel the sadness already, can't imagine how it feels, coz breaking up is bad enuff for me but well the main thing is to remain positive in life? hmm, i noe i'm writing a lot of crap n prob no one is reading it, but yar, i reallie shld focus, n focus, conc n conc n stop thinking abt the incident on fri oh well i think i'm gg to try n sleep wif the coffee in my body n wake up tmr n mug at the lib...wish me luck people
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