Tuesday, April 05, 2005
4:31 PM
hello, hmm, taking a break from my revision, haha..been reading for RM n i realise like nothing much to study lydat leh, duno is it me or wad? anyway, i reallie hope i can get at least a B for RM, n if a miracle can happen, let me get a A ok! haha yar, den revised my timetable, actuallie I realise me still got some itme [ provided i really stick to my timetable], slow n steady, i can even jus put a chapter a day lor haha but BF322 suxs, I have no idea wad's gg on, n haven touch at all, gonna start tmr, maybe it mite b a different story if i reallie get started on revising 322 n 219, i'm pinning my hopes on 219, though, i dunno mus reallie say I need lotsa luck too..ya lor, actuallie it's reallie boring, i hate this studying period, wan to go out also nobody to go out wif, buthen again if i go out i will be guilty too, i rahter stay home n sleep den go out haha, ya, but i reallie ought to do some last minute catching up, this sem reallie flies past so quickly leh, in a year going to grad liao, think next sem worst lor, will be busy bia-ing for FYP! anyway, I finalli met my fyp mate in the lab the other day, so funni, i felt so so weird, like haha, i told yongfeng it feels like a blind date n he says i think until too romantic liao, i mean i dun mean it in that sense, but like, jus funni lor, the idea of not knowing how the person looks like n forming the group, I hope that we reallie can work together lor yar lor...anyway, yar, nothing much lor... oh ya the other day went to eat suki buffet wif siewfeng, miaosi, aaron, libing n junguang, shall post up the fotos next time. its the place where they haf the ice-cream buffet one but we din try to ice-cream buffet ya lor, lalala i don't know oh then ah, after that i went to look for james leh, silly me hor, coz he sms me tell me he was spinning at NO. 5, but after see-ing him I didn't realle feel anything lor, its a good sign to show that I've moved on :) yar lor..I don't know leh, i went there, den he din even seem happie i was there, to the the extent he didn't reallie bother looking at me, it made me feel like a bai chi la, den when i asked him why he so unfrenly, i mean he tell me he was there means mb he wans me to go look for him, but when i'm there he dun even gif a damm to me la, den he said that his manager was around n he can't talk, is that a real reason or jus an excuse, nvm la, it doesn't reallie bother me, seriously i'm happy wif my life, carefree, can do whatever i wan to go, can go out with whoever i wan to , i dun haf to feel restricted yar lor, I jus hope that he's truly happie n treats me as a friend, that's all i ask for, because, the thought of 2 person who used to be so close turning into strangers just makes me feel upset lor, i am one who treasures my frenships wif any1 a lot, ya lor. hmm, at this point in time, i think I just wana focus on my studies n frens, i doubt my xin fu will come along so fast haha but yea, for those out there who got hurt in their past relationship, take the time off to bask in the love of ur frens n family, do wadever u wish to do, n of coz learn to let go bah, u jus make urself miserable by holding on, finding out more abt the other person. I thought of something alwyn told me, james's close fren, he already closed his door in ur face, why knock n knock n knock knowing he won't open the door for u again? y not open ur door n let others come along.....actuallie it was his words that made me realise a few months back that i reallie shld haf let go lor, yar, I am happie that we were once close, happie that at least we r frens..its enuff to know that
last but no least
I would like to wish YAM a HAPPIE bIRThdAY! it was yesterday though haha, yeps she jus told me she had a nice pinic wif her frens, how nice n cozy n sweet of her hall frens to organise for her hehe yeps,
gonna take a bathe n continue my revision[ how hardworking i am hehe :p] [ like real] [ progressing well..:)]
you make my life perfect-`