Tuesday, November 09, 2004
1:08 AM
hmm..the truth hurts..it hurts so badly....maybe sometimes ignorance is bliss? but mb it's good that the truth is out....at least mb it gives me a reason to let go....or rather..it leaves me wif no choice but to let go...actuallie..it's reallie hurting me veri badly...i loved him wif my heart, now i haf to remove him from my heart....hmm..actuallie the truth's like a movie...i can't write it here...but ya it's reallie like filming a movie....i dunno...went to meet him on sat and sun....went to mount faber, sat down n chat...sat was a very fun time, running down the staircase...enjoying the cool breeze of the nite...same spot same place but different atmostphere on sunday....i wish him all the best...i no longer bear any intention of getting back to him..beocz it's just not gg to happen.....the past 3 months was reallie terrible for me...it's the hardest time of my life...getting used to life without him...getting used to the harsh realities of life....something which came so expected to me....something which i never thought i would have to experience or go through....i've been crying almost everiday for the past 3 months...it's hurting my eyes a lot too.....i duno....ya...i just wish him all the best....and i know that he'll be the one i love the most in my life....mb for now...ya...i just hope that he can make it( it's a secret)...i hope so ..deep in my heart...i reallie wished he's not doing wadever he's doing now..wished he could stop everithig i wished that time could be turned back and freeze....i don't know..i just hope that he's happy..and i hope to have more time to spend wif him before he leaves......maybe he's leaving for good..but i hope not..i dunno......let time wash away all the pain ...meanwhile i have to study hard...i have to...i just have to..there's no time left.....brain please help me! ...oh well..i must say i'm really glad to have my frens there for me during this period of time...u'll noe who u r...thanks!...study hard huijun!
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