Monday, September 20, 2004
1:34 AM
wow, how time flies..there goes my 1 week break....break? actually there wasn't really a really a break...it's more like a project week to me..although did squeeze some time out for shopping n gathering wif S16...yups...hmm but most of the week was busy doing the aa102 project..wonder why we took to long to finish it, monday siewhong n libing came over to my hall to stayover, had quite some fun, watched cinderella story...but i fell aslepp 1/2 way, too tired already hehe...yups....den tues did research thingy, wed proj, thurs research thingy, finally i had friday n sat to play...friday i went to sing ktv wif siewhong, libing n liqin...we went to kbox at cineleisure, sang for 3 hours, den i went shopping wif liqin n siewhong...guess wad..i bought THREE ear rings! all very nice...two pearly ones n one beaded ones..very nice..it's been long since i've slurged on myself...yups...den satuday was rather 'happening'...met s16 for dinner at geyland, we were not sure of our way, so we went around in circles, trying to find the 'golden pillow' which me n siewhong craved for a long long time, finally we found it..but poor siewhong, she dun take mutton, the only kind left was the mutton one, but the stall holder did not tell us! so poor her she din get to eat wad she wanted to...heh...but lucky for her the frog leg porridge stall was the nice one which we ate during the FOC camp, yups...we had popiah too...after that we went to eat you tiao...n dou jiang/hua....n alvin, lest, n shux ordered this beeg beef kuay teow n lester kept proclaiming that it's the best kuey tiao, but i thought it's not nice at all..it's chao ta one! haii...well..that's how my week past.....hmm ya this week james went to uk too...from sun - thurs, for a short conference meeting i guess..i haf no idea wad he's doing but i just know that he's very busy n haf absolutely no time for me..actualli i reallie feel veri sad..i used to be so impt to him..now i dunno wad i'm worth in his heart, mb he still cares abt me but he no longer shows it...that day while singing ktv..i dunno y i suddenly cried..so paiseh...just that the song kinda made me think of everything...the song goes smthing like it's so hard to remove someone from your heart....it's really veri difficult...u noe every single day n almost every moment even when i'm very occupied i think of james....but i guess he don't..becoz he has too many things on his mind other than me...i'm so sad....but i noe i can't just dwell in my sadness...i noe..but it's hard to move on..it's been almost like..gg to hit 2 months already but every single day, i inevitably shed some tears, but he doesn't noe it...i just hope in his heart he's happy i dun wish to be a nuisance to him...i dun wish to...mb for now i jus hope that i still haf a small place in his heart...jus a tiiny spot...well..it's gonna be exams soon...i need to reallie buck up ....reallie i noe i can't get A's already coz i haben been studying hard...jus hope to be able to fare well lor.......may the luck be wif me..i've been reallie down on luck lately..reallie i can feel it..i dunno....
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